I miss him

So right now, I'm absolutely exhausted.
But I have so much on my mind at the same time. I thought it would be better to get it all out before I go tot bed.
So, We got to hang out again today for a little bit. It was in the afternoon and I was really in the mood for a nap. But I really wanted him to lay down with me, sort of like we used to do. So that just brought up a whole bunch of emotions and thoughts and stuff.
I really do miss him. I miss being able to do some of the things we used to do. Like laying down and resting with each other. And being able to hug him as much as I want to, whenever I want. I don't know. I see my friends Matt and Michele everyday, and they've been together for the past two years or something like that, and I love them to death, but seeing them together makes me miss Brian even more. I wish I could do or say to him even half the things they do and say to each other.
I don't really know. I guess right now I'm in one of those moods. I'm pretty much not even close to being over him, and I'm feeling kind of lonely right now.
What I miss most though is telling him I love him.
Because I still do. Very much.

Anyway, I'm really tired and haven't slept much lately, so I'm off to bed.