This is nuts

So I've had a really bad day. Really bad.
But apparently that doesn't matter.
I lost my phone today at school. And knowing the type of people there, its probably long gone. But I'll be able to get a new one and stuff, cause we have insurance, but I can't help but stress about it a little. My phone was very important to me, and I feel so awkward not having it with me. That seems understandable, right?
It's also been a bad day because Brian has been going through some weird moods. But of course its all my fault. If I'm too quiet, or not as perky as usual, or not 100% happy, it throws him off and puts him in a bad mood.
Since I lost my phone, I've been feeling kind of scatter-brained. I have less than 2 weeks left of school, but my brain has decided to shut down a little early. So I'm not quite myself. I enjoy sitting quietly and thinking, about anything and everything, or nothing at all. But lately, if I find myself sitting quietly, I suddenly remember something and for some reason I think I've lost it. This is probably also due to the fact that I've lost my phone. So I frantically search for it, making sure I still have whatever it is. I'm not unhappy or upset when I do this, I just want to make sure I still have whatever it is. But oohhhh nooo. This isn't a good thing either.

And another thing, I have been perfectly happy with the way things have been going, I've been happy for the past few WEEKS, but those go ignored. As soon as my mood changes, and Brian gets thrown off, suddenly everything is crap, and to him, we've only been happy for like a day. That is complete bull. It's stress. We're both stressed. And apparently when we both get like that, we don't communicate very effectively, and I get made to feel like it's all my fault. It really is lovely.

I also have been completely exhausted for the past few days. This could be another reason. I haven't been getting much sleep, and it really impairs my function. I can't do anything. I get bogged down, worn out, frustrated easily, and my brain isn't as sharp as usual. This is probably the reason for everything. I'm just so tired.

Something else that is on my mind: Prom
Prom is coming up, and I am really excited. It's my senior prom, and I think me and my cousin Melissa are going together, which will make everything even more fun. But I also think that Brian assumes we're going together. But since I don't know for sure, I haven't said anything to him. He keeps complaining about having to get a tux, and having to spend his own money on it. Kind of stupid. Last year he spent like 84 dollars total. I've told him he doesn't have to go if he doesn't want to, cause I'm going regardless. It's just kind of getting on my nerves. But whatever.


I guess we'll see what happens these next few days.
I'm going to bed.