Background

Okay. So I decided to start this blog because I have so much going through my mind at any given time, its ridiculous. It all started with a boy. His name is Brian and we dated for two weeks shy of a year. It's the longest relationship I have ever been in. We were so in love. It was absolutely fantastic. If you've ever really been in love, or are in love now, then you know what I'm talking about. Our relationship wasn't one of those lame high school flings, it was the real deal. Anyway, that's what we had, but I won't go into detail, because it's still painful, even now.
He broke up with me two days into our spring break, therefor giving me the worst spring break ever. The pain was unbearable. I felt like my whole world had ended. I cried for days, and I couldn't be left alone. My friends definitely helped out a lot though, and I am very very greatful for all of the support they gave me and continue to give me. You have no idea how much it helped. Anyway, school started back up and it pretty much sucked. He texted me though, wondering if we could still be friends. I said yes, because he was and still is my very best friend. He knows everything about me and I know that I can trust him with absolutely anything. So we were friends, and it was good. We hung out all the time and talked about everything and sort of ended up realizing that we still had feelings for each other and maybe we might get back together.
So we kept talking and hanging out , and we even went on a few dates. It was great and I was really happy again. I felt better and I could tell he was better and happier too. But then all of a sudden, a few days ago, things seemed to have completely fallen apart and I don't really understand why. I feel a little taken for granted. The problem is, Brian doesn't know what he wants. On top of quite a bit of stress and a serious case of senioritis, it may have led to him having second thoughts about everything. About us. He's told me that he's curious as to what else is out there girl wise, and I have a feeling that this is why all of this is happening.
But we'll see what happens.